My gorilla grip cooch broke my thrusting dildo.

Throwaway account for obvious reasons. This horrific story happened literally 30 mins ago, I have no one to confess this to so im coming to Reddit. It was about 1 am, I had taken edibles earlier, i was outRAGEOUSLY high and I eventually found myself searching my dresser for my toys. I grabbed a dildo that thrusts through a motor within the toy instead of having a pole going through it while attached to a machine (I can’t afford that rich people shit). Eventually I go to town, yk, and I am the kind of person who enjoys pain while going at it and when I felt pain down there I just assumed it was the toy going in weird and stretching the girl out, but it felt good so I just kept it going. Eventually, I finished and I took the toy out, and as I look down i realize there’s a big fucking gap of rubber missing on the toy (like the toy fucking had an abrasion) and I could see the motor within. And then I realized there was blood around the hole. A lot of fucking blood. And there was a small hole within the motor and I think I could literally see chunks of my fucking vagina IN THE HOLE. I didn’t mean for this to happen. I clenched down so fucking hard on that thing to the point it broke and cut my downstairs up. I don’t even feel any pain so I don’t know if I just somehow tore my hymen super late or I actually ended up causing damage down there.